trust & promises

not because of what you've done... in fact you've done nothing. but you indirectly uncover my fear. fear of broken promises, of abandonment, and you reminded me of my Dad, and even my Mum. i just thought, that's what my Dad would do.. and i hate it. yes i've forgiven him, but the fear of being hurt the same stupid way again is what's left. i cannot trust anyone, because i cannot tell when i can trust... i am too gullible like you said. and someone who's known me for only 5 days can tell me i'm too innocent and it's not good. to protect my heart, is to not take risks. yeah i don't want to believe whatever promise you've made again. i don't want to believe whatever promise anyone else makes.. other than promise of God. i will only trust Him. because people break promises, no matter what, it might be of no choice. so don't promise me anything. there's too many broken promises in my life, too many names to name if you were to ask me who has made a promise to me so certain, and ended up breaking it. i am tired of dashed hopes. i am keeping myself close to God. to you i'm sorry, this is the only explanation i would give, i guess i am selfish too. in conclusion, promises are nothing but crap.