first day at work

my first day at work, it's interesting.

reported at 8:30am sharp, and the receptionist was late. so this guy opened the door for me, and i thought, who is he and why is he waiting too. then ended up, he is just like me, recruited for the same job, both of us. so i made a new friend, alvin. and the rest of the colleagues are nice, we went for lunch with a few of them at nus. i smsed howai that i was going to engineering side and he called me and asked me where i was hahaha... but i din meet him. alvin's dad turned out to be the uncle selling the popular fried kway tiao at church hawker!! LOL. okay and the hawker is going to be gone soon, really super depressing - imagine, no purple plate, no ye lai xiang, no hamcheeeeebang, no soya bean milk, NO NOTHING AT ALL. hais. anyway, back to my interesting day... we got caught in the rain on our way back to office. and for the rest of the 5 hours i just call up companies and ask them if they are interested in our broadband services, get shouted at, get rude remarks, get rejections... but also some potential costumers :D so for the 8 hours at the desk i call and talk and call and talk. it is insane.

i've talked to 340 people today, alvin talked to 440. cos he's faster than me! i have to finish my list tmr, then i'll have talked to 420! haha.

looking forward to work tmr? yes and no :/

pacific internet

yesterday andy from pacific internet called me and asked me tons of questions through the phone while i am having lunch. today he asked me to go down for a face-to-face interview. tomorrow i am going to work! praise the Lord, i am so happy i got this telemaketing job :D the pay is good, and it's at science park, so it isn't that far. and yeahhh, peilin and maria, i am NOT going to work in F&B anymore haha... okay, so for the rest of you (erastus jamie cerise! chua jt) , i'll pray for you to get the job that will fit you perfectly. God provides :)

my working hours are super long though :X it's 8.30 to 6, with an hour lunch break in between. that's all. i hope i can live up to whatever expectations. err, and not get into any trouble, *cross my fingers* i am going to sleep at 1130! if not will sure be late tmr, and i will leave a bad first impression, and that's the last thing i want to do. can't blame me for being excited, this is the first real job i ever got.

job hunt

went on a job hunt yesterday with cerise erastus and jamie. quite disappointed with something that happened, but nvm, it's not worth mentioning or staying disappointed with :) friendship is more than this. anyway i am still kinda tired from yesterday. i really hope to get the job at newyorknewyork though i asked peilin and she told me it sucks. love the people there already :D ...i have applied for so many jobs, and mostly still pending. i decided to skip eng wah interview today, and decided to just forget about the haagen dazs application. cos orchard towers is full of prostitutes and just not a good place i wanna step in just for interview, and 4.50 per hour is too little. NEWYORKNEWYORK PLEASE, GOD, or something better will be nice, like Aldo or sorts? hahaha. shopping with cerise was super funny. no no, actually, talking to cerise is super funny! Lol. our conversations always turn out funny. almost died laughing at raffles mall yesterday over sthg i cannot rmb now. ahhaha...

supposed to go running today with jamie and erastus. but jamie sent an sms at 1 plus a.m. saying she will not be able to wake up. and anyway it's raining heavily now. :X

ahhh.... give me the best job ever, Daddy! and make me exercise please.

story

i love holidays. you get to do different things every day! :D friday night after Growth i went for seazzle, but all i did was to spend a night in school, with no good sleep, and left the next day morning. i heard sentosa was good, good for those who stayed :) i went to church for service. today i played basketball and watched rented vcds at jamie's.

tmr will be an exciting day.

anyway, today i read 1Samuel for the first time. i read the 1st chapter. i really love Hannah, i admire her faith. unwavering faith.

medsoc

yay medsoc exam is over, which means exam is over, which means it's holidays now! :D thank you eugene for all the testing this and that, i think you made me understand alot of stuff, BUT i still flanked that stupid paper, because i didn't answer what they didn't ask, and therefore my 8 marks ans is 3 lines, and my 14 marks ans is half a page. ha. ha. how smart, peh sin ee. but guess what, i don't really care. because it's HOLIDAYS now! and i am sure i'll pass no matter what, so no worries, God bless me!















this is a picture in my medsoc textbook. it shows the effect of tv violence on kids... how kids imitate the adult's violent ways in the video. the imitation is so exact it's scary.
















this is a view from my room window :D quite nice, actually, right? there's the playground, and the basketball court, and there's a fountain on the right side of the playground.

jamie is at my house now hahah! i am a happy girl.

God will give me the best

3mths19days. still waiting in the rain for you to open your door.

if it's God's will, my heart will never change.
if God has decided to thwart it all, i would let it go easily.

but for now,
i know i am still with you. i am not ashamed. although i am not sure what went wrong, i don't know what was the problem or who was the one who caused it, and i am not sure what will this become in future. guess i'll wait after all. wait, not by counting down. not by hanging on crying screaming, no. not by shutting down my heart to any other possibilities. not by praying real hard and hoping God heard me.

i am doing this by being me. i will talk to you even if it means me taking the initiative, as usual. i will be there in case you decided to open up your door, cos this was what i promised, and i'm sorry i walked away for a while. but now i know what to do. i am not going to tell God what i want, i will let him tell me what He wants. so i move on, but i will not take my eyes off you. my heart is not willing to. He told me so, wait. yeah, okay, i wait. for whatever He has in plan for me. i cannot see the end, i never could. what had happened cannot be bullshit, no such coincidence.... must have happened cos it's part of God's plan.

wait, not for a result, but for His answers, whatever they may be. i am not afraid.
i will fall deeper if it means falling. i will cry harder in the end if it leads me to the end.

anyway, God will be there.

you ain't know nothing.

blehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

i am officially mugging for medsoc as of today. haha not that this will last long - the paper is on thurs. i am on schedule. i've decided that if you fail to plan, you plan to fail, and yada yada... at the end of the day i just wanna do well that's all! i will never wanna repeat module, it will just screw up the entire poly education.

i love strawberries. but i finished them :/

editor

oh, just let me be a narcissist for once. i am so proud of myself cos...
I EDITTED THE FOOTAGES FOR DIRECTOR'S CUT :D

yay. editted it in church office today, with josh suggesting ideas. i think it's really funny and i hope COOS youth's gonna like it. yeah, i love final cut! hahaha.. oh and i am so elated i can now see maria wilson through skype. she seems so near... D: oh maria come back soon.

right now i shall put my heart and soul into studying for medsoc exam. i really wanna do well... it's the last last thing for this sem, and i want to end the sem beautifully. all the best, fellow mass commas. no more filming no more editting D; NO MORE DOUGLAS KWON! sobs.

hello!

haven't been blogging for the past week. school work makes people mad... for the past few days i haven't had the time. and with erastus lim staring at the screen while i type now, i'm not exactly in the perfect mood to blog. but oh well, i finally have the time now - i handed up locvid final project today! :D everyone, say yay! yeah and i am NOT going to do my webgra assignment. it's not wise, but i dunno how to do. D: serious.

i am soooo super glad all i am left with now is medsoc exam. okay, not very glad. but at least, it's one last thing left. :))))))) jamie erastus and chinwooooo are all mugging hehe. i have vivian on my lap now but i am not reading it. i need to gather all the stuff i need to study for medsoc.. cos i didn't pay attention during tutorials and now i'm desperate. D: yeah don't be like me.

Thus far has the Lord helped us!

God's glorious (and complicated) plan.

we attended peckhwang's mum's funeral wake at the singapore casket. all i will say is, peckhwang is a really strong girl. and met many exclassmates from 4j whom i haven't seen for really long, and haven't talked to in ages.

well well.. God will lead me to my destiny.

heartache

i am having marketing test in another 4 hours' time. and i'm at my last chapter. but i cannot concentrate now, out of focus all of a suddenly. overcome with subtle heartache. i still care and i know it's unfair.. but i have to do this, out of no logical reason, because you are quite illogical as well. and when God speaks, i obey. simple as that. He wants you for Himself. God is a jealous God, but He fights for our hearts. i feel peace not because He loves me more, but because i have given my heart to Him, which He doesn't want to share with anyone else. yet.

okay, randomness.
yesterday was a mugging day, like seriously. i studied 7 hours straight in the library with erastus and jamie doing crap half the time and marcus joining us at 4. yeah, it's a fruitful day, like jamie said (all she did was study for say, 2 hours.) hahaha every sunday shall be mugging day till exam is over.. oh, that means i'm left with one last sunday LTL. by the way, i've revolutionized LOL to LTL. try guessing what it is hahahha!

back to marketing zzzzzzz

trust & promises

not because of what you've done... in fact you've done nothing. but you indirectly uncover my fear. fear of broken promises, of abandonment, and you reminded me of my Dad, and even my Mum. i just thought, that's what my Dad would do.. and i hate it. yes i've forgiven him, but the fear of being hurt the same stupid way again is what's left. i cannot trust anyone, because i cannot tell when i can trust... i am too gullible like you said. and someone who's known me for only 5 days can tell me i'm too innocent and it's not good. to protect my heart, is to not take risks. yeah i don't want to believe whatever promise you've made again. i don't want to believe whatever promise anyone else makes.. other than promise of God. i will only trust Him. because people break promises, no matter what, it might be of no choice. so don't promise me anything. there's too many broken promises in my life, too many names to name if you were to ask me who has made a promise to me so certain, and ended up breaking it. i am tired of dashed hopes. i am keeping myself close to God. to you i'm sorry, this is the only explanation i would give, i guess i am selfish too. in conclusion, promises are nothing but crap.

connie

this is connie and she's really sweet! she's only 6 years old. :D