It was awesome, like i said before that it's gonna be awesome. I am really touched by God and what He has done for all of us at the camp. It's so amazing how God works. We were faithless people when we did not think that the estimated 90 people would sign up. I estimated 70, the final time Howai counted was 70, but somehow... there's 90 campers. Then there were just so many coincidences that I can't even start with one to talk about! NOT COINCIDENCES. it's God. God changed me through Fuel, now He changed me again through Fuel Up. Oh God... i am just so overwhelmed.
And did i mention worship at the last youth service of the year????!!!! WOW.
That, is true worship.
of course coming back from a 3 days 2 nights camp, recharged spiritually, convicted, passionate,..... you would think that i would have a longer blog entry. but what else can i say; it's all in my heart.
It's different. Everything starts to shift with the changing perspective.
wow.
wow
wow
Wow
wow
wow
WOW!
God is so good, so faithful, and i really love You.
Now i should be sleeping. all those pimples and blackheads and dark circles grr.. but God knows what's really on my mind now is worship, and i'm really excite how things will change..
EXCITE!
Sunday, December 30, 2007
Tuesday, December 25, 2007
change
God knocks some sense into my head 10 am in the morn and i feel like i have to note these down.
i have to stop being such a
-procrastinator
-lazy person
-unfocused+unpurposeful teenager
-unhealthy girl
-bimbo
-fatigue-plagued-in-the-morning-can't-wake-up student
-timewaster
-irritable daughter
i have to get rid of
-my school work
-my room
-my messy boy stuff that's mostly in my head not heart and not even existing now
-my cell-hopping habits
-my dad. yes, my dad.
all these have solutions. i know nothing is impossible with God. SO, i am going to write my new year resolutions soon enough for the coming new year. now i'm just going back to sleep.
Merry Christmas.
i have to stop being such a
-procrastinator
-lazy person
-unfocused+unpurposeful teenager
-unhealthy girl
-bimbo
-fatigue-plagued-in-the-morning-can't-wake-up student
-timewaster
-irritable daughter
i have to get rid of
-my school work
-my room
-my messy boy stuff that's mostly in my head not heart and not even existing now
-my cell-hopping habits
-my dad. yes, my dad.
all these have solutions. i know nothing is impossible with God. SO, i am going to write my new year resolutions soon enough for the coming new year. now i'm just going back to sleep.
Merry Christmas.
Sunday, December 23, 2007
i'm extremely excited
oh gosh i can't tell you how high i am now. there's so much things to do on these last few days of camp and my mind is all over the place hahaha. wow i really hope the camp will turn out better than great. Nothing is impossible with GOD aye?
YES, I LOVE FUEL UP ALREADY.
YES, I LOVE FUEL UP ALREADY.
Thursday, December 20, 2007
good triumps bad
Good things happen you know? I'm counting the blessings - it's much better.
Cell chalet was high. I think we just laughed all the way until breakfast time when the fatigue kicks in. LOL. We should have more of these, it's real fun, so much fun. :D
Then i went for my sec2 class' gathering at my friend's place right after we checked out. so guess what; i slept for 2 hours, woke up when more people came, we played cards and watched hairspray, i dozed off in between, woke up, ordered dinner, i went to sleep, woke up and ate dinner, went home. wow cool. i know, well done sinee.
Camp comm tried out the games today.
Fuel Up is so gonna rock your socks. SIGN UP NOW.
27th-29th Dec, $40, Salvation Army Camp site, sign up closing date 23rd Dec.
Interested? email me at pehsinee@hotmail.com
NOW. seriously.
Cell chalet was high. I think we just laughed all the way until breakfast time when the fatigue kicks in. LOL. We should have more of these, it's real fun, so much fun. :D
Then i went for my sec2 class' gathering at my friend's place right after we checked out. so guess what; i slept for 2 hours, woke up when more people came, we played cards and watched hairspray, i dozed off in between, woke up, ordered dinner, i went to sleep, woke up and ate dinner, went home. wow cool. i know, well done sinee.
Camp comm tried out the games today.
Fuel Up is so gonna rock your socks. SIGN UP NOW.
27th-29th Dec, $40, Salvation Army Camp site, sign up closing date 23rd Dec.
Interested? email me at pehsinee@hotmail.com
NOW. seriously.
Monday, December 17, 2007
junkie; i was trying to die i guess
yeah, i was definitely trying to kill myself by eating 100000000 calories worth or junk food from yesterday to today. i am not kidding. we ate like 3 tubs of ben and jerry's, 3 humongous packs of chips, and lots of biscuits, then there are left overs. so i ate chips and chips for breakfast and lunch today. AH!
i wanna detox. i am going to keep away from the junk at chalet tmr. and i will drink water as if i am permanently dehydrated. bleah, junkfood is so gross, but i couldn't stop eating them. my throat hurts and my tongue too! D:
i wanna detox. i am going to keep away from the junk at chalet tmr. and i will drink water as if i am permanently dehydrated. bleah, junkfood is so gross, but i couldn't stop eating them. my throat hurts and my tongue too! D:
Saturday, December 15, 2007
take courage
woah today i went on stage and gave a testimony woah!
hahaha i was so nervous and happy at the same time. butterflies were flying all over in my stomach. my heart was beating extremeeeeely fast. wow. i love being on stage. :D my speechcomm skills come to use! i'm glad i took mass comm woah.
when i saw davin and derrick sitting at the front i was soooo glad, cos i couldn't see all the people at the back (i.e. my cell, np cell, ferdi's cell, people i know), and i felt a little scared. so i was glad at least i can see davin derrick, and howai. and pastor charissa was standing with me, thank God. at some point she said amen to sthg i said, and i was so encouraged. thank you COOS youth! i stammered quite a few times though, i tried the act-like-i'm-not-nervous stunt, and i failed terribly hahahaha. but at the end i was fine, i can feel it, can my hands stopped shaking. :D i am happy to be doing this for God, anyway.
talked to cerise over dinner. i love you babe!
Psalm 31:24
"Be strong, and let your heart take courage, all you who wait for the Lord."
hahaha i was so nervous and happy at the same time. butterflies were flying all over in my stomach. my heart was beating extremeeeeely fast. wow. i love being on stage. :D my speechcomm skills come to use! i'm glad i took mass comm woah.
when i saw davin and derrick sitting at the front i was soooo glad, cos i couldn't see all the people at the back (i.e. my cell, np cell, ferdi's cell, people i know), and i felt a little scared. so i was glad at least i can see davin derrick, and howai. and pastor charissa was standing with me, thank God. at some point she said amen to sthg i said, and i was so encouraged. thank you COOS youth! i stammered quite a few times though, i tried the act-like-i'm-not-nervous stunt, and i failed terribly hahahaha. but at the end i was fine, i can feel it, can my hands stopped shaking. :D i am happy to be doing this for God, anyway.
talked to cerise over dinner. i love you babe!
Psalm 31:24
"Be strong, and let your heart take courage, all you who wait for the Lord."
Wednesday, December 12, 2007
desperation
honestly,
except for one person i continuously rant to, nobody knows what the hell i am talking about or what kind of bloody mess this is.
no, it's not about deadlines
no, it's not about being tired of life
no, it's not about fasting getting tough
no, it's not about falling away from my dear God
no it's not about family
no it's not about pressure of any sort
no, it's not about anything anyone thinks it is.
it's about something i don't know how to, and i don't want to, put in words.
it's about something nobody can help or say anything that can make me feel better.
i am desperate.
but no matter what, no one can understand except for the one person who knows what the hell i am talking about!
so thank you but it's okay, don't try anymore.
except for one person i continuously rant to, nobody knows what the hell i am talking about or what kind of bloody mess this is.
no, it's not about deadlines
no, it's not about being tired of life
no, it's not about fasting getting tough
no, it's not about falling away from my dear God
no it's not about family
no it's not about pressure of any sort
no, it's not about anything anyone thinks it is.
it's about something i don't know how to, and i don't want to, put in words.
it's about something nobody can help or say anything that can make me feel better.
i am desperate.
but no matter what, no one can understand except for the one person who knows what the hell i am talking about!
so thank you but it's okay, don't try anymore.
Monday, December 10, 2007
i plunged in again...
thank God i finished the writcom exercise already
thank God i have no sch tmr
thank God i have free time to be down
thank God i can be alone tmr
thank God for being here with me
because my mind is in a total blank now, and my heart feels like it's going to turn to dust. my body feels empty my head feels heavy and my eyes feel filled to the brim with liquid. because without God i think i am already dead.
the rain is not going to stop anytime soon.
i'm freezing.
i want to throw up.
thank God i have no sch tmr
thank God i have free time to be down
thank God i can be alone tmr
thank God for being here with me
because my mind is in a total blank now, and my heart feels like it's going to turn to dust. my body feels empty my head feels heavy and my eyes feel filled to the brim with liquid. because without God i think i am already dead.
the rain is not going to stop anytime soon.
i'm freezing.
i want to throw up.
Saturday, December 8, 2007
Tuesday, December 4, 2007
why did God curse Eve.
Why did God curse Eve with loneliness and heartache, an emptiness that nothing would be able to fill? Wasn’t her life going to be hard enough out there in the world, banished from the Garden that was her true home, her only home, never able to return? It seems unkind. Cruel, even.
He did it to save her. For as we all know personally, something in Eve’s heart shifted at the fall. Something sent its roots down deep into her soul – and ours – that mistrust of God’s heart, that resolution to find life on our own terms. So God has to thwart her. In love, he has to block her attempts until, wounded and aching; she turns to him and him alone for her rescue.
Therefore I will block her path with thorn bushes;
I will wall her in so she cannot find her way.
She will chase after her lovers but not catch them;
she will look for them but not find them.
Hosea 2:6-7
Jesus has to thwart us too – thwart our self-redemptive plans, our controlling and our hiding, thwart the ways we are seeking to fill the ache within us. Otherwise, we would never fully turn to him for our rescue. Oh, we might turn to him for our “salvation,” for a ticket to heaven when we die. We might turn to him even in the form of Christian service, regular church attendance, a moral life. But inside, our heart remains broken and captive and far from the One who can help us.
And so you will see the gentle, firm hand of God in a woman’s life hemming her in. Wherever it is we have sought life apart from him, he disrupts our plans, our “way of life” which is not life at all.
(Captivating (, 96-97)
He did it to save her. For as we all know personally, something in Eve’s heart shifted at the fall. Something sent its roots down deep into her soul – and ours – that mistrust of God’s heart, that resolution to find life on our own terms. So God has to thwart her. In love, he has to block her attempts until, wounded and aching; she turns to him and him alone for her rescue.
Therefore I will block her path with thorn bushes;
I will wall her in so she cannot find her way.
She will chase after her lovers but not catch them;
she will look for them but not find them.
Hosea 2:6-7
Jesus has to thwart us too – thwart our self-redemptive plans, our controlling and our hiding, thwart the ways we are seeking to fill the ache within us. Otherwise, we would never fully turn to him for our rescue. Oh, we might turn to him for our “salvation,” for a ticket to heaven when we die. We might turn to him even in the form of Christian service, regular church attendance, a moral life. But inside, our heart remains broken and captive and far from the One who can help us.
And so you will see the gentle, firm hand of God in a woman’s life hemming her in. Wherever it is we have sought life apart from him, he disrupts our plans, our “way of life” which is not life at all.
(Captivating (, 96-97)
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