dream

I had a really weird dream last night, i wouldn't call it a nightmare though it's really scary.
cos i dreamt that i died and i went to heaven. and i seriously thought everything was real... Some more i asked the others in heaven if it's real, and they assured me that i really got shot in my head by someone (yeah it's all the things that happened before i die that's scary) and went to heaven, it's not a dream. so i was really happy! like, COOL I AM IN HEAVEN no need to do my radio report. and i went around looking for people i know. i saw some, and it's like there's many many many rooms in heaven. each room has different things going on. some of them were learning how to play electric guitars, and i joined them, but then the guitars in heaven seem a little different so i gave up trying. and some people were doing experiments ....?!? hahahha, but it's so peaceful and joyous everywhere.

then i woke up.
where am i?
shit i'm still at home, in my own bed, i didn't die, much less went to heaven.

ya, i'm going to do my radio report now.

cookies business

CHECK THIS OUT

really tasty ;)

anyway, school was fine today. it's slack, it's boring, but i still like it :D tmr will be gymming plus movie. hahaha, so lame! actually i have a lot of time i waste. but well, i have lots of purposeful things to do as well! like.... my assignments.

coming week

okey dokey, today is sunday, tmr is schoolday! :D i feel lazy to go to school, but i guess i'm still happy, at least it's better than rotting at home or going to work hahaha. have quite some schwork to do, speech, journals, radio report. THINK RADIO :) did the 1 min capsule on akon - what boring subject.

weekend was fine, church and time with God and the siao people in COOS. jamie suddenly went missing :(
anyway, i got my pay (yes, finally!) and i went shopping alone on sat cos i had the time between meeting liane and church service. ended up spending ard 200 at topshop, sheesh. then, i forgot to tithe for this month. OH MY GOODNESS. haha, nvm, i'll just tithe together for Nov.
















i love my dried roses.

can't believe 2007 is coming to an end so soon. seems really really fast, a year after another. such difference, such nostalgia, yet at the same time looking forward. looking forward to His plan revealing..

caged

Locked up. most of us feel caged in some way or another, and the meaning of the word freedom has changed over time. it's no longer freedom, it's limited freedom. you can't have everything you want, or do anything you like, just because there's no way, like no matter how many Heroes episodes we watch, we don't possess that kind of supernatural abilities. how i wish i can fly.

"What is impossible with man, is possible with God." Man, is man. We live by society's rules, and obeys God, we are expected to. I'm not complaining, just thinking... That maybe it's because we couldn't meet expectations, and hence our expectations are not met, and in disappointment we crushed them and never look back.

Why is life like this? All i want is freedom. i wanna break away.
but i've been at the same spot since forever, and my roots have grown deep. even if i uproot, i am still caged.

no matter where you run, you're running into a bigger cage.

Think About it, Think, Think About it

Watched this during IS class today and it's super funny! they're a band from new zealand and i think they're really cute :D

postsecret

this is from postsecret.blogspot.com
speaks for so many people, including me.

















don't be mistaken, this is not from postsecret, haha!
guess who drew this :D

of course it's me! haha... first day of school is refreshing :) true, 2 weeks later i'll be complaining, but for now, i'm glad to be back in school. T103 is no more T103, we're T108 now... back to campus, bubbletea, slacking in the library, dozing off in lectures, :D being happy!

my lecturer is bald, and i cannot remember his name.

sucker

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ANGST.
i'm sorry. to God daddy. to myself. to everyone who cares. God, i am surrendering. You know i am, my dear God. but why... i am trying my best and i'm doing it. why is this test getting tougher. why must it be now i realised how stupid i really am. i hate . i hate . i hate . i hate .

liar.
it's not that i cannot let go, i can, that's why i'm surrendering already. but i don't feel sad now. no, not sadness. it's ANGST. ANGST! why. i feel so cheated. hello? i am not a doll, i am not a bloody puppet, what you said to me cannot be unsaid. i don't care you pretended nothing happened, i don't care anymore. but just as i thought we can be friends again, i realised how big is this lie. i hate you. I HATE YOU.

let me tell you this. give me back my damn volleyball and we don't ever have to meet again. even if we bumped into each other, you'll be invisible to me, and i will be invisible to you. until you realise what a bastard you are.

you're worse than any other guy in the past. cos YOU pretended.

born again

My heart is dancing with joy now.

i am no longer my old self. the whole baptism was... amazing. and this is the first day of my wonderful life, that i live for Jesus.

THANK YOU!!! i love COOS youth, and all of you who congratulated me, gave my flowers, gifts, balloons, handshakes, hugs, smiles, screams of joy. hahaha flo almost suffocated me. jengting bong my head with the balloon :D LOL. yongjin gave me so many things i wonder which is the baptism present ahhaha. shook a zillion hands, said a zillion thanks. Mum was happy for me. and God says let the deflating balloon signify the end of all that you couldn't let go. and i must say, i feel so light now.

i'm baby laurel.
Laurel, crown of victory.