do i have confidence?

it was such a dumb thing to do, especially when i waited for nothing, but that was just one hour and it won't change anything. it just made my heart sink a little. just a little. but now i'm not waiting for just an hour. it may be a month or a few months, or maybe even a year? i don't know. i don't know if i have confidence in myself or in you. because this is so vague, so weakly-rooted. it has only been 4 days, and i'm already feeling so suppressed. and i keep thinking about this. i cannot think about anything else. God is in control, i know. so i pray everyday, that He take charge of my life, cos my mind and soul are tired. i feel pathetic relying on one single sms to make myself feel better everyday. i feel so alone in this.