wet weather plan

this morning i went for a meeting at taman jurong.. me and lujie felt so abandoned D: and then luckily yitong alfred huihui came not very long later. met this teacher from lakeside pri and i love her! she's so nice and she even talked about her adopted daughter, which stunned me a little cos after all we were just a bunch of strangers and yet she talked so openly about not being able to give birth herself. i learnt quite alot from her during that short 2 hours. :)


alfred was saying it's not gonna rain at sentosa, so me huihui and lujie made our way there to survey the place for the camp outing. but we nvr made it there. cos we were stuck at harbourfront instead due to the rain..... zzz.... but we discussed most of it already and decided not to have the outing at sentosa -.- so we actually went all the way to harbourfront to eat icecream at mac. and lujie got himself new names- Introvert, Ancestor, Qian2 Bei4 (senior). it was super funny me and huihui kept laughing, esp when lujie acted like a zi4 bi4 child.


went around vivo with huihui after that to look for her dress and my shoes and accessories. met many rvians.... hahha... really tired on my way home and i walked home in the rain. i think i have really cute grandparents! imagine their conversation in hokkien:


grandma: today's longbeans damn nice. anyhow cook also so nice. why huh? (she cooked them)
grandpa: it's because the longbeans are of good quality
grandma: -.- it's because of the skills OK!
grandpa: haiya longbeans good, nothing to do with skills la.
grandma: who says.....

prom dress!

oh well i went prom dress hunting today with my mum. my mum's the funkiest mum on earth! at least to me she is :D hahhaha we took neoprints. but shopping was soooooo tiring.. i got so frustrated i prayed to God for help to spot the perfect dress for me. and i got my prom dress finally after like 4 hours of shopping and looking around.... hmm quite happy with whatever i've got now. i love my belt. i love my mum.


and i went running at 830 tonight. ran a damn long distance around my neighbourhood. i love how quiet it is at night... when i was running, i could think about everything and i could think about nothing. i could look into my mind, and i could block it out. although occasionally i'd run pass smokers and i got pissed, i still love it. i shall run more!


somehow my mum's pigging out like me now, and i'm not.

screw it

i can see why he's so upset. because you don't decide and do it fast enough. you're hesitant. that's what gave him that lack of sense of security. so i did it, thinking i know what i'm doing. maybe i'm wrong. should've let you do it your own noble way because it's none of my business, is it? shouldn't have cared, shouldn't have thought about your problem either. i apologise for not being in my right mind. what the hell did i think i was doing. creating problems for myself. killing my brain cells, feeling frustrated over an argument that was over and for you. in the end i'm a busybody. and i'm sorry for that, okay? call me a bitch right now, i don't care.

for Gift of Reading

we had fun doing filming today :D i loooooovvvvvvvveeeee Gift! i was really getting the jitters when i do the interview although it was only victor ng and kish and pl there looking at me. pl had to do it three times, huihui was behaving like ahbeng :p , khenghwee can talk while smiling throughout the whole interview, and waimin was freaking funny! hahahha she and her photoshop idea. and her big pimple. khenghwee was totally mad today! i didn't know she was trying to do with waimin but she ended up on the floor struggling with pl pulling her. hahahaha. just hope that the video can be done in time...


went to kheng's house and i saw some old photos :) back when i still play badminton. i didn't know i look so pro :p nah... just look so good on court. i could almost feel that passion again. that energy to run on court... i'll post a couple of these photos when i get them from kheng. i've already forgotten how it feels like to play that game.


i don't really care where i go anymore. i leave it to fate. ok i know that sounds corny but hey, you don't have to see everything ahead to be happy. sometimes uncertainty can be good :)

looking ahead.. or back?

kish said i'm very insightful yesterday. it's surprising to hear that because i never knew and noone ever said that. haha... i ended up staying at jec till 11 last night. hmm... after the pae briefing, i got this really messed up feeling. i don't know why i don't really feel like moving forward now. maybe cos there's just too much memories in rv, too much things left unsaid, and simply because of the people... people who don't seem to care, yet i just can't let go of.

and now i'm at the moe site... but i'm not ready to choose the course and school options. i don't know what i want, really. that's why.

the beginning

the end of O level is the new beginning of my life! yeah a really huge chapter of my life has ended... 4 years in rv. time really flies. & a new life needs a new blog :D hahaha ok actually Os been over for 2 days now.. i love how slow things are going now. feels soooooooo good to have no physics hw to worry about. it's 4 years of struggle now finally freedom comes. although i know the mugging life will be back really soon when i go to jc, but still... i live the moment! i always think about the past, i seldom think about the future. :) but even now the past doesnt really matter anymore. i'm letting go of so many things already since there's no use holding on to them. i'm learning to live with whatever i have and be happy and contented. i'll be freaking busy this short holidays.. i dunno wat i'll be doing, i just know i'll be busy :D hahaha. i can't keep my hands off famous amos cookies :X & i got my contact lenses today! yayyyyyy my eyes can grow bigger now. and then i can see where i'm heading in life, hopefully.