suddenly busy

so, i am really pissed off today. i don't know, it's just been so irritating with some people, like a certain fsv teacher zzzzzzzzzzz. he made me scold bad word. anyway i feel so busy suddenly! like the to do list has just gotten 5 times longer. My goodness... oh well, i guess it's because of the end-of-year phenomenon. People get BUSY. Oh but i'm kind of glad i have things to do... hahaha, i like the purposefulness :D i have things like shopping, going to chalet, etc, on the list, ON TOP OF deadlines to meet. WAH SO BUSY!

haha, and i went to cut my hair today. damn it, it's so retarded to go to JB just to cut hair. it jammed this afternoon and pissed my mum off so we're never ever going to JB just to cut hair ever again, never ever again, never! but, the hair cut is good, really.

Ask, and you shall receive.

Dear heavenly Father, I thank you for all the things you've provided me with, and i know you're giving the best for my needs. Lord i pray that you'll send an iPod touch my way, because you've created such a wonderful thing and I LOVE IT. Yes, i love it. Daddy, please grant my wish, if it's in your will. You're awesome and almighty and it says in your Word that nothing is impossible. So God i'm very sure you will provide. I pray for the iPod touch to be in my hands sooooon. Thank you Lord. Amen.

my dear classmates

Speechcom lesson today was awesome. Tears, true feelings, revealed. And i guess i looked like the happiest thing on earth, not that i would rather keep things to myself or that i don't trust you all, just that it'll probably help more if i can stay being the happy icon that i've been. maybe i don't understand fully your stories, but i know why the tears.

My dear classmates, i admire the courage of those of you who bared your souls, and let it out. I really do. Sometimes there are things that hurt, and nothing can ever take that pain away, but it's that pain that shapes us, who we are and who we will become. Life slaps us silly. We hate it. We fight our battles thinking wth are we doing. We hate it. People around us say things that hurt. We hate it. We try too hard to prove a point. We hate it. Sick and tired, torn and battered.

Where is the turning point?

online shopping

okay, mood today: happy. the saucy ad presentation for issues is quite well done :) it's much better than the political gangster one, and i'm happy with myself. and of cos, with the rest of the group too. there's still quite some sch work to do, so i'm gonna stop playing fm or a while.... or maybe not. yes, i play FOOTBALL MANAGER, and yes, i think i'm still a girl. what am i talking about?

anyway, my threadless tees arrived!! yayyyyyyyyyy. i kinda regret ordering L cos it's a little baggy for me. but i love them still, and i can live with baggy shirts. :D

online shopping is so addictive, yeah, i know you've heard this for the umpteenth time. i just ordered david and goliath shirts last night. maybe i should stop buying shirts and start looking ard for bags and shoes.

I WANT TO COLLECT DUMB BLONDES! no, not like paris hilt*n or jess*ca simpson. i mean david and goliath shirts, they have this dumb blonde series, it's really cute and funny! there's like 23 of them. if i wanna collect, it'll cos me
USD18 x 23 = USD 414 = SGD 616.86 + shipping + misc charges = ard SGD 630
don't have that kind of money. D:

damn

i am screwing up every single thing i try to do.

the freaking grammar test had some weird thing happening, the answer boxes were like screwed up so i couldn't type any answers in them. i tried to reattempt and realised i can't. F*&K.

i am thinking maybe i should just forget about the damn radio assignment as well.
and i really feel like cutting class again tmr. i need a 2-years-holidays or sthg.

damn it. i should just burn my house down. oh shit, i live in a HDB FLAT so i'll end up buring the flat down. maybe i should evacuate the others first before i do anything. you think?

yes you think i'm stupid.

okay i have to do f*&king cue sheet and production whatever, i don't even know what's the difference btwn them.. i'll never become a dj.

hide, or run?

shit happens.

thank you though,
marcus
ferdinand
isaac
tim
aini

thank you for asking, listening, trying.
arigatou.

i can be stubborn i'm sorry. and, i don't need some psychological shit though i think i am going crazy. what the heck.

ikuta toma!

HANA KIMI. japanese version is the best really.














































































































YES i think i am madly in love with ikuta toma. "homo ja nai!"
adorable. nakatsu is the best role in hana kimi :D because toma played it well. fabulousa!

all night prayer

i brought along my pillow, and went through the longest worship ever. learnt how to soak in God's presence and just let him touch me.

The Lord your God is in your midst,
a mighty one who will save;
he will rejoice over you with gladness;
he will quiet you by his love;
he will exult over you with loud singing.
-Zeph 3:17


i did not fall asleep. :)

why do we even question.

today there was a little debate about religions. eugene was doing doing the issues stuff, and we were searching for muslim laws and all. then questions about the quran and the bible were raised. of cos, i wasn't sure how to handle some questions thrown at me, and as a daughter of God, i didn't want to dishonour my Father. and i will never condemn the other religions as well. i guess the part from Epic below, is a little answer to our hearts' questions. The rest will have to filled by God daddy himself.

Will Everyone I Love Be There?
11/06/2007

The kingdom of heaven is like a king who prepared a wedding banquet for his son. He sent his servants to those who had been invited to the banquet to tell them to come, but they refused to come. Then he sent some more servants and said, “Tell those who have been invited that I have prepared my dinner . . . Come to the wedding banquet.” But they paid no attention and went off—one to his field, another to his business. (Matthew 22:2–5)

Now for a sobering truth, more sobering than any other we have considered.

To be honest, we must understand that not everyone lives happily ever after, not in any tale. This promise of the happy ending—or the new beginning—is only for the friends of God. Many people do not want the life that God offers them.

Remember—he gave us free will.

He gave us a choice.

We seem to forget—perhaps more truthfully, we refuse to remember—that we are the ones who betrayed him, not vice versa. We are the ones who listened to the lies of the Evil One in the Garden; we chose to mistrust the heart of God. In breaking the one command he gave us, we set in motion a life of breaking his commands. (You have loved God with all your heart, soul, mind, and strength? You have loved your neighbor as yourself?)

The final act of self-centeredness is seen in those who refuse to come to the wedding banquet of God (Matthew 22:2–3). They do not want God. They reject his offer of forgiveness and reconciliation through Jesus. What is he to do? The universe has only two options. If they insist, God will grant to them what they have wanted—to be left to themselves.

To be rescued from an eternity apart from God—this is why the rescued ones fall before him at the Great Feast in songs of gratitude and worship. Yes, we will worship God. It won’t be like a church service, but we will worship him. We will adore him.

But that day has not yet come.

Until then, the invitation of life stands.

I have set before you life and death . . . Now choose life. (Deuteronomy 30:19)

(Epic, 88 - 92)

the game plan = update

okay first of all, the game plan is a great movie which made me cry buckets. secondly, i have loads to update but i am too busy now, and i have work to rush, yet again. third, guess i'll update in a few days' time. for now, go watch THE GAME PLAN. haha :D