I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

shit happens.

anyway, today is junkfood day. i've ate so much candies kavina brought back from london, and i ate mac for lunch -.- and more junk for dinner. nevermind, i don't wish to live past 50 years of age anyway.

i gym, i'm a gymnast.

hahaha nah, i'm not a gymnast! but i'm back to gymming :D i ran 4.2 km today in np gymworkz. super shiok ok! the showers in there are fabulous. nice nice. :D :D :D going again on friday. today we went to school just for 2 hours of dreamweaver and photoshop tests. 20%, no kidding. the room is a freezer, as usual... hais, more tests coming up.. and project deadlines. :X no time to waste, this 1 month plus is ultimate! i just want to get it over with..............

i cannot contact vernon a! ugh. and me and audrey need to interview him by this week, i don't care. i don't want to procrastinate.

having dinner with teechewxiang in a while more. i... skipped my jap lesson :/

powerrrrr encounter.

Gallery Hotel, although it's a small 3-star hotel, i love it :) if one day i run away from home, i'll pick that place to stay. it's right beside the Singapore river, which i thought is the longest river in s'pore, until someone told me otherwise.















this is the view from the room. well, not much, but still, nice in a sense. if you look carefully you can see the art bridge! :D haha i love that bridge.















^yeap this bridge. i love the bakery we found there too. i've never tasted bread like that! man, it just makes me feel like opening a bakery myself. maybe i will. :D















this is the very amusing bathroom. it has a big full-length mirror beside the toilet bowl, so you can actually look at yourself shit. :X uh sounds crude but that was what i thought.















and you know what? the bathroom door is frosty but you can still peep if you want. that's amber in there lol.















amber's bear's heart stinks and she said it's her smell. myhand made friends with her bear. and the bed you see there? on it lies a pillow way huge, i can sleep there forever.

haha anyway power encounter was okay. i wouldn't say awesome cos many times it was boring and draggy, i mean the teachings. i like personal ministry though. :) nice experience, i love the hotel! amber is a crazy roommate; she jumps on the bed and onto the bed like nobody's business. jamie's stomach is screwed after she returned from mission trip, poor girl. and jingxin's lameness is only a level below zac's. maybe guys from their cell are all like that lol.

oh OH, and you know what's the best thing about this whole thing other than God? it's the food! the food we had was awesome. AWESOME. AWESOME!!!! haha like seriously i haven't had such satisfying lunch for a long time, i thank God for it! oooh and we learnt toothpick tricks from master jamie.

home sweet home now.... i am going to sleeeeeeeeeeeeeep zzz. tmr is a new school term, which means deadlines, and i can predict i am going to turn back into zombie-mode soon. ciao!

clean-cut

i need a new clean layout, so here goes. everything out, except for my posts. i lost my tagboard in the process. so i guess you people have to use the comments thing.

this is it, i've decided. i don't want to give a damn about anything that doesn't really matter. moving on means not turning back, isn't it? fine, i shan't turn around to look at your face anymore. since you're long gone anyway, and i doubt you care. but then i am afraid of what lies ahead. i am scared it's be just another disappointment. all that has happened has made me cynical, scared.

everything's made to be broken?
if it's true, then i'd rather everything's not made.

talk to my hand.

FOSSETT leaders :D
ferdinand yongjin meeeee.
















talk to my hand.





it feels good to be home alone doing nothing in the day once again. haven't been like that since... since the last holidays. time just flies and things that happened were now just a big blur in my head, and it's only 2 months. there wasn't a minute i can remember that i stop and think about what i'm doing, the only time i stop rushing is when i'm in church thinking about God. even then i cannot clear my mind, school work and all. the pace is... too fast. i didn't have time for myself. i went jogging yesterday morning alone, when was the last time i did that i cannot remember. and this is what i mean- i lost connection with my inner-self, and now trying to regain it. but soon i'll be thrown back into the whirlpool again, not knowing where i'm going, clinging on to nothing but God. finding all the peace i can from God.

adventure camp

whatever bad things might have happened during camp, i leave them behind. i'll remember the laughter the fun and the joy :D being a GL, i was so tired and trying, and i am glad after all these i can look back and say i never regret going for the camp. i've learnt alot. and the person i wanna thank most throughout the camp is ferdi :) wanna thank yongjin cheryl liane jengting esther howai and shanyu for being there as well. i don't know what really happened that i cried those tears, maybe i was just tired. but well, we're all still a big family in Christ. it says in the Word to forgive and love one another. i love my FOSSETT :D i'm proud of my kids. i love HILLARY too. and there's pugh kunst garside adams stevens magellan piccard and armstrong. everyone did great. the camp comm the GLs the campers. everyone. :)) i love the apples and i love gestures.

i've made 2 major decisions during this camp. God will carry me through.

this is a bottomless pit.

FINALLY gracom is over, for the moment. phew, handed in the 2 indiviidual projects on time. no more logos and brochure. thank you God for giving me strength and sustaining me throughout this period of intense pressure and sleepless nights. now the weight is lightened, but more is coming, i can smell the freaking workload - it's not far away. and work NEVER gets cleared, i still have assignments on hand. mass comm :X now i'm scared. but heck, i'll never regret choosing jc over poly. i'll rather work my ass off projects and assignments than kill my braincells for mugging aimlessly. locvid is another killer. i cannot finish my editing, but thank God for the wonderful people he sent. eugene and jarrel! haha i owe you guys big. i owe ferdi and joseph big time too. they acted for my adapted project :D and they had to make like quite a number of trips down to NP. really grateful for them. it's 2 hours to camp! i am GL hahhahha coolio! so very excited. it's 5 days for GLs woots! COOS youth adventure camp heh... i bet ferdi and my grp's gonna be the best, cos we got the biggest grp. :D :D :D

no worries. happy happy happy!

setting a new pace

"above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life"
-proverbs 4:23

i love You and Your Word.

thank you too, boney. one day i'll write an essay as a tribute to you ;) for all that you've done for me as a brother.