death

you should live while you can and stop thinking about death. i'm in a bloody bad mood now and B____ chose to irritate me at this time asking this and that, pretending like i'm s'posed to report to him about my life. wtf?ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i'm not going to wait forever you know. heal faster heal faster heal faster...

how much faith/ how much fate

okayyyy so my aunt got married today :D congratulations. it's always so sweet to witness a marriage... "I DO" spoken so sure and lovingly, not realising things can turn out different in near future. but still, God brings people together for a reason. i call this fate. hohoho someone found my blog.. hmm maybe i should blog in an extremely abstract manner such that people won't understand.

so much about fate. so much about faith. how much faith can i put in fate? tick tock tick tock.. how much faith can i put in uncertainty?

emo

i hate cny. hate cny. love the money i get but still wat's the use. ppl make me upset. stupid relatives who think they know me, but they do not.... can somebody tell me i did the right thing. for everything i've done. tell me i did the right thing. eh why did you hold my fingers. just hold my hand will die uh, baka! D:

well done.

when things seem bad

felt so pathetic last night. i almost hoped some stranger would pick me up but no. so i ended up home anyway.

love ACtually

i don't want to think whether or not it's a right choice anymore. going to poly is the final choice and if it turns out sucky in future, i'll just have to deal with it.

yesterday was valentine's. i had fun thanks to someone :) but i lost my phone D: so frustrating you know! cos i have a memory card in my phone D: tsk! but still i was very happy yesterday. i travelled on the red line and purple line the whole day lol. i bet i lost my phone on the train. and then i took the long route from somerset to yiochukang to je to bouna vista... and i reached school at 2 plus pm. wanted to give alot of ppl chocs but couldn't find most of them. i love the roses i received! sweet sweet ppl :D i love maria, she gave me a balloon.

i withdrew from ac and actually monday was my last day.. i will miss all the new friends i made and my old friends there.

JAE

results are out. i think i did okay. l1r5 10 :)
and i just did my jae online...

NP and SP courses for all 12 choices. so i'm definitely going to poly :D

i love church.

this dilemma

lately, i've been thinking so much.

weighing my options, my pros and cons, i've decided that i want to go to a poly. jc life really isn't my cup of tea. i got support from some people, but some think i should stay in ac... should i? but i do not wish to. should i? should i not? this dilemma is making my mind whirl and i'm not even sure how am i going to choose now. which matters most? should i or shuold i not? do i want to or do i not want to? would i be happy? i'm so unhappy living like a zombie in jc, but would i be happier living a life i do not know yet in poly?

would i regret if i withdraw from ac next week? would i still want to withdraw after i get back my results tmr?

??????????these are all i can find in my head.

i love my God

something amazing happened to me yesterday in church.

i drank quite a bit last night. i really hate tequila.

i love my God

something amazing happened to me yesterday in church.

i drank quite a bit last night. i really hate tequila.